As I type this, winter is having (hopefully) its last party for a while. We’ve been known to have snow in late spring here in metro Detroit, Michigan though. I guess anything is possible.
A few short weeks ago, we had a warm snap. I loved being able to walk outside with a lightweight jacket in the 60F+ weather that week.
Oh well. What are you going to do? I just allow it all and work on being flexible.
I love the cozy feeling of winter though. There’s nothing like it!
I’m currently beginning the second week of my two week, spring cleanse. I usually do a cleanse 2-3 times per year (spring, summer, and fall). It’s currently the full moon, a great time to release.
Releasing seems to be all I’ve been doing the past three years. I actually don’t recognize my life at times from what it was or what I thought it would be years ago. I’ve been intensely evolving, shedding what no longer serves me, sometimes without any seeming choice on my end.
The thing is, the real me was always under all the layers. I just had piled on so many coats of paint over the years trying to hide her.
As I’ve stripped away the layers, I’ve learned quite a bit. There’s a lot of things I plan on sharing with you. I don’t plan on sharing it all, however.
I don’t believe that everyone needs to know everything about me. I’m very selective the past couple of years about what I share. I also prefer to share things and lessons from my scars, not my wounds (paraphrasing author Glennon Doyle-Melton here).
Speaking of wounds, I’ve been healing mine. There were many. They needed cleaning, flushing out, stitching up, disinfected, and cared for in a big way.
I thought for many years I had done quite a bit of healing and growth work. Nope. There was more. I think there is always more, but I feel you get to a good place.
I’m 45 years old as I write this and I will say that I’m in the happiest, most peaceful and healthy place I’ve ever been as an adult. I’m at the tail end of doing the online class, Soul Restoration with The Brave Girls’ Club. It’s life-changing. The process and things I’ve healed though are very personal. Since I’m a private person, I’m not going to be sharing those a-ha’s publicly much on my blog here.
It’s been hard work. I’ve felt tired.
I’ve been healing my physical body quite a bit.
I’ve been healing my past.
I’ve been healing all the disappointments and things that still hurt.
I’ve been putting myself back together.
I’ve been rebuilding my habits.
I’ve let go of distractions.
I’ve done the Kon Mari process of decluttering for nearly a year (I just have a couple more piles and some family photos to organize).
I’ve been working on grieving since my mom passed in June 2015.
I’ve been coming to terms with those who have left my life over the years due to death or us growing apart.
I’ve been healing myself with plant-based diet, yoga, guided imageries, meditation, journaling, flower essences, walking, nature, art journaling, and following my soul’s calling as a musician.
I’ve given myself forgiveness and compassion for all of my mistakes, including the really so-called horrible ones.
I’ve learned that I’m a soul who is learning, just like everyone else.
I’ve learned that my stories matter and so do everyone else’s.
I’ve learned that everyone is doing their best.
I’ve learned that I have value in the world. I’ve learned that I don’t have to prove myself to anyone.
I’ve learned that I deserve good things, including respect from others.
I’ve learned how to share my truth with love with others. Sometimes, it has great results. Other times, not so much.
Learning and letting go are my themes lately.
Of course, these are the highlights. Don’t go thinking you know everything that has been up with me, okay? Thanks.
P.S. I don’t feel I need to put photos or graphics with every blog post of mine any more.
(copyrighted 2017 by Lisa Selow)